Mikan, I hate you. You made Natsume so sad........ I bet this is like, the first chapter he's shown so much emotion to a lot of people in GA.
Gah Mikan, why didn't you elope (or run away, so to speak) with him when you had the chance. Who cares about Yuka?
Okay, well, that was harsh. Yuka is quite a nice person I admit.
Gah!! Next chapter be out soon please!!!!!! I'm dying to know what happens next!!!!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
Movies to Watch
Mmmm... everyone's like, pretty crazy (well, at least most of my peers) with movies lately, may it be 'This is It' by the late Michael Jackson or Jennifer's Body feat. Megan Fox and the list goes on......
Harry Potter and the Half Bloof Prince was released during July or so, and after Siok Zhao, Eli, me and co. bought the tickets, we rushed up to the seventh floor to the cinema room. On my way, I noticed a really HUGE poster for 2012 (film) and had my eyes set on it right at the moment I saw it. I dunno why, but to me, it was like another kind of 'The Day After Tomorrow', so I was REEAAALLYY looking foward to it.
And today, I realized that many more people are anticipating it as well as I am, and I found out that all this anticipation was due to some kind of scientifically back-upped statement that the world would meet its doom on the year of 2012.
If that's true (I'm not sure, have yet to check up Wikipedia), I have only three words to describe this event.
That will suck.
Actually, I think my description is an understatement. It's waayyy worse than that!! I still have so many things I want to do!! College! The legal age to get a job and earn some cash to buy my iPod and iPhone!!!!! Own an MP3!!!! Own a super nice house with a room specially for my collections ranging from manga and anime to sleek electronic devices!!! Live somewhere near Kinokuniya!!!! EARN BIG BUCKS!!! Grow old and die alone!!!!!!!
Gah, these are all the things I want to do!!!!!!! You don't expect me to accomplish those (especially the 'grow old' part) in just what? Two years? No, wait, make that one. 2009 is almost over.
Checking it up Wikipedia later. Moving on....
Everyone's obsessed with movies lately, with New Moon (sucks like some word I don't really want to say now) and 2012 coming soon... But as I browse through the pages of Wikipedia randomly, I stumbled across a film with the largest cast ensemble in cinema history - Valentine's Day.
No kidding, it's the title!!! 'Valentine's Day' is the title for the film!!!!!
The film stars, according to Wikipedia, (note that the following are the artists I only know in the film cast) Jessica Alba, Julia Roberts, Jaime Foxx, Anne Hathaway, Emma Roberts, and the next two will make you Taylor/Taylor fans (SINGER and ACTOR gossip news!!) swoon, Taylor Swift and Taylor Lautner!!! LE GASP!!! And they are dating in the real life!!!!
Okay, I know that to some of you people out there it's no big deal but for some one who likes Taylor Swift and just found out that her favourite artist's boyfriend is Taylor Lautner, an actor from the Twilight movie series that she dislikes (yes, I dislike the Twilight movies, but not Taylor Lautner, got a problem?) TODAY, it is quite shocking news...
I'm betting five bucks (FYI, Ringgit Malaysia) that those two will be a couple in the movie.
Plus, the film poster on Wikipedia looks really interesting. I'm definitely and absolutely looking foward to catch this movie.
AND GUESS WHAT FOLKS? THIS MOVIE WILL BE RELEASED AROUND VALENTINE'S DAY!!!! WHICH IS SOMEWHERE NEAR MY BIRTHDAY!!!! YAY!!!!!! The real release date in the US is 12 February 2010, but it varies from countries to countries. I'm not really sure what the release date in Malaysia is, but one thing's for sure, I'm defintiely gonna catch this movie!!!
My birthday falls on a Saturday next year, so I think I'll catch this on a Friday or a Monday. Mmm...
You know, this is my first time planning all the stuff about an outing with so much detail to watch a movie that will be released next year, wow. And no, I have never even done this for Harry Potter, only like, maybe a month or two before...
(Away, and back in a few minutes)
OMIGOSH!! I'VE JUST FOUND OUT THAT MY BIRTHDAY FALLS IN CHINESE NEW YEAR'S EVE!!! (And I hit sweet sixteen. Gah, so cliched.)
Wow, Febraury 2010 is gonna be a damn busy month.
As if Form Four life isn't as busy as it is already..... Hah! Come foward my Form Four year!!! I am mentally prepared!!!!!! Not.
Harry Potter and the Half Bloof Prince was released during July or so, and after Siok Zhao, Eli, me and co. bought the tickets, we rushed up to the seventh floor to the cinema room. On my way, I noticed a really HUGE poster for 2012 (film) and had my eyes set on it right at the moment I saw it. I dunno why, but to me, it was like another kind of 'The Day After Tomorrow', so I was REEAAALLYY looking foward to it.
And today, I realized that many more people are anticipating it as well as I am, and I found out that all this anticipation was due to some kind of scientifically back-upped statement that the world would meet its doom on the year of 2012.
If that's true (I'm not sure, have yet to check up Wikipedia), I have only three words to describe this event.
That will suck.
Actually, I think my description is an understatement. It's waayyy worse than that!! I still have so many things I want to do!! College! The legal age to get a job and earn some cash to buy my iPod and iPhone!!!!! Own an MP3!!!! Own a super nice house with a room specially for my collections ranging from manga and anime to sleek electronic devices!!! Live somewhere near Kinokuniya!!!! EARN BIG BUCKS!!! Grow old and die alone!!!!!!!
Gah, these are all the things I want to do!!!!!!! You don't expect me to accomplish those (especially the 'grow old' part) in just what? Two years? No, wait, make that one. 2009 is almost over.
Checking it up Wikipedia later. Moving on....
Everyone's obsessed with movies lately, with New Moon (sucks like some word I don't really want to say now) and 2012 coming soon... But as I browse through the pages of Wikipedia randomly, I stumbled across a film with the largest cast ensemble in cinema history - Valentine's Day.
No kidding, it's the title!!! 'Valentine's Day' is the title for the film!!!!!
The film stars, according to Wikipedia, (note that the following are the artists I only know in the film cast) Jessica Alba, Julia Roberts, Jaime Foxx, Anne Hathaway, Emma Roberts, and the next two will make you Taylor/Taylor fans (SINGER and ACTOR gossip news!!) swoon, Taylor Swift and Taylor Lautner!!! LE GASP!!! And they are dating in the real life!!!!
Okay, I know that to some of you people out there it's no big deal but for some one who likes Taylor Swift and just found out that her favourite artist's boyfriend is Taylor Lautner, an actor from the Twilight movie series that she dislikes (yes, I dislike the Twilight movies, but not Taylor Lautner, got a problem?) TODAY, it is quite shocking news...
I'm betting five bucks (FYI, Ringgit Malaysia) that those two will be a couple in the movie.
Plus, the film poster on Wikipedia looks really interesting. I'm definitely and absolutely looking foward to catch this movie.
AND GUESS WHAT FOLKS? THIS MOVIE WILL BE RELEASED AROUND VALENTINE'S DAY!!!! WHICH IS SOMEWHERE NEAR MY BIRTHDAY!!!! YAY!!!!!! The real release date in the US is 12 February 2010, but it varies from countries to countries. I'm not really sure what the release date in Malaysia is, but one thing's for sure, I'm defintiely gonna catch this movie!!!
My birthday falls on a Saturday next year, so I think I'll catch this on a Friday or a Monday. Mmm...
You know, this is my first time planning all the stuff about an outing with so much detail to watch a movie that will be released next year, wow. And no, I have never even done this for Harry Potter, only like, maybe a month or two before...
(Away, and back in a few minutes)
OMIGOSH!! I'VE JUST FOUND OUT THAT MY BIRTHDAY FALLS IN CHINESE NEW YEAR'S EVE!!! (And I hit sweet sixteen. Gah, so cliched.)
Wow, Febraury 2010 is gonna be a damn busy month.
As if Form Four life isn't as busy as it is already..... Hah! Come foward my Form Four year!!! I am mentally prepared!!!!!! Not.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Extra GA Chapter 122 info!!!
I'VE SEEN IT! I'VE SEEN IT WITH MY VERY OWN EYES!!! AND OMIGOSH, MY INTUITION WAS CORRECT!!!
The front-page character of GA volume 20 will the the High School Principal, YES!!! BWAHAHA!!! I can't wait until our local publishers have them on stores...
Anyways, as I was checking my favourite links section for some unknown reason, I happened to stumble across yukaalice's blog link, and it occured to me that she was one of the people that would get the translations firsthand. And yesh! She posted them on her blog!! As well as the raw scans!!!! I LOVE YOU YUKAALICE!!!
But her blog is in chinese, so those of you who are interested after reading this..... well... I don't know. But the scans are in Japanese (as I said, raw scans) so I can't as much as understand a heck of a word. But never mind, as long as I get to see them with my very own eyes.... heeheehee....
Few minutes later...
OMFG!!!! NATSUME'S EXPRESSION IS SO SAD!!! And being the usual me, I gain satisfaction from it. (insert evil laugh)
After finishing looking through the scans....
Hmm, nothing really as heartbreaking as Natsume's expression after that. Only a bunch of Japanese kanji verses I don't understand and Iagarashi Kaoru's death. But at the moment of dawn, I somehow can't really make out the faces of those who were shocked shown on the page. Hmmm... they all look the same.
Gah well, never mind. Next chapter comes out on the 20th of November!!!!!!!! The last day of school AKA the start of the holidays!!!!!!!!!! YESH!!!!! I look foward to it!!!!!!!!!!
The front-page character of GA volume 20 will the the High School Principal, YES!!! BWAHAHA!!! I can't wait until our local publishers have them on stores...
Anyways, as I was checking my favourite links section for some unknown reason, I happened to stumble across yukaalice's blog link, and it occured to me that she was one of the people that would get the translations firsthand. And yesh! She posted them on her blog!! As well as the raw scans!!!! I LOVE YOU YUKAALICE!!!
But her blog is in chinese, so those of you who are interested after reading this..... well... I don't know. But the scans are in Japanese (as I said, raw scans) so I can't as much as understand a heck of a word. But never mind, as long as I get to see them with my very own eyes.... heeheehee....
Few minutes later...
OMFG!!!! NATSUME'S EXPRESSION IS SO SAD!!! And being the usual me, I gain satisfaction from it. (insert evil laugh)
After finishing looking through the scans....
Hmm, nothing really as heartbreaking as Natsume's expression after that. Only a bunch of Japanese kanji verses I don't understand and Iagarashi Kaoru's death. But at the moment of dawn, I somehow can't really make out the faces of those who were shocked shown on the page. Hmmm... they all look the same.
Gah well, never mind. Next chapter comes out on the 20th of November!!!!!!!! The last day of school AKA the start of the holidays!!!!!!!!!! YESH!!!!! I look foward to it!!!!!!!!!!
Spoilers of GA chapter 122 from Sorasan
Yes people, I've just went to Sorasan's Livejournal and le gasp!!! The spoilers for GA chapter 122 are out!!
NATSUME~~~ I AGREE WITH YOU SORASAN!!!! I WANT TO SEE HIM SHED SOME TEARS TOO!!!
Anyways, now that the suspense for the latest GA chapter has dropped slightly, I'm waiting for sky-fire to post the latest chapter of GA, there isn't a high chance of Mangafox posting the chapter earlier than the chinese scanlators do anyway... So, meh.
School today was unexpectedly okay... The Canting Batik activity turned out to be quite enjoyable, much to my surprise. Our group (Chia Yin, Mathura, Yasreen and me) managed to pull off quite some nice colours at the end, and we were quite smug about it. XD
Of course, not forgetting the people who helped to draw and sketch the whole design too!! Huge thanks to Siok Zhao and Eli for helping out!!! And Mathura and Li Yan for giving us moral support and lightening up the moody atmosphere that was present at the beginning. You guys are the best. :)
Chia Yin's bunking school tomorrow, but I don't think I will, even if I really want to. I still have to give Pn. Yeoh my report (THE PRINTER DIED ON ME!! GOD!!!!) and go to MPH after that to check on the updates on the status on a book I ordered. Pray that it'll be here ASAP!! I need it urgently!!!!
Oh yeah, Natalie told me that I would be playing in tomorrow's Pesta Permainan........
......................
WHAT?! I CAN'T PLAY!! I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO KICK THE BALL ACCURATELY INTO THE GOAL POSTS (knowing me, I'd probably send the ball flying into my opponents goal post and help them gain one point)!!! NEITHER DO I KNOW HOW TO SWING THE SOFTBALL BAT AT THE RIGHT MOMENT WHEN THE BALL COMES!!!
Geez... But never mind, I'll just have to make do with them I guess. (FOR THE SAKE OF MY TRIP TO MPH!!!! Unless the person-in-charge manages to call me miraculously at this very moment to tell me what'll happen next.)
Off to type my report!!! I'll probably save it in a thumbdrive for Pn Yeoh, unless my printer will somehow (again) perform miracles and roar back to life.
Rawr.
NATSUME~~~ I AGREE WITH YOU SORASAN!!!! I WANT TO SEE HIM SHED SOME TEARS TOO!!!
Anyways, now that the suspense for the latest GA chapter has dropped slightly, I'm waiting for sky-fire to post the latest chapter of GA, there isn't a high chance of Mangafox posting the chapter earlier than the chinese scanlators do anyway... So, meh.
School today was unexpectedly okay... The Canting Batik activity turned out to be quite enjoyable, much to my surprise. Our group (Chia Yin, Mathura, Yasreen and me) managed to pull off quite some nice colours at the end, and we were quite smug about it. XD
Of course, not forgetting the people who helped to draw and sketch the whole design too!! Huge thanks to Siok Zhao and Eli for helping out!!! And Mathura and Li Yan for giving us moral support and lightening up the moody atmosphere that was present at the beginning. You guys are the best. :)
Chia Yin's bunking school tomorrow, but I don't think I will, even if I really want to. I still have to give Pn. Yeoh my report (THE PRINTER DIED ON ME!! GOD!!!!) and go to MPH after that to check on the updates on the status on a book I ordered. Pray that it'll be here ASAP!! I need it urgently!!!!
Oh yeah, Natalie told me that I would be playing in tomorrow's Pesta Permainan........
......................
WHAT?! I CAN'T PLAY!! I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO KICK THE BALL ACCURATELY INTO THE GOAL POSTS (knowing me, I'd probably send the ball flying into my opponents goal post and help them gain one point)!!! NEITHER DO I KNOW HOW TO SWING THE SOFTBALL BAT AT THE RIGHT MOMENT WHEN THE BALL COMES!!!
Geez... But never mind, I'll just have to make do with them I guess. (FOR THE SAKE OF MY TRIP TO MPH!!!! Unless the person-in-charge manages to call me miraculously at this very moment to tell me what'll happen next.)
Off to type my report!!! I'll probably save it in a thumbdrive for Pn Yeoh, unless my printer will somehow (again) perform miracles and roar back to life.
Rawr.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Don't Take Me for Granted
Important note: The following post contains offensive material and lots of swear words so if you're one unable to even look at those words you deem as 'ditry', I suggest that you switch to another page. Thank you for your cooperation, you've been warned.
Oh, and due to the length of this post as well as the time it has been posted, the grammar and spelling might have a bit of typos here and there.
Post start:
Don't take me for granted.
Seriously. I hate it when people do that. It's like you think of me as a piece of useless, crappy shit that is only useful when you need some of my 'shitty' qualities.
I repeat, don't take me for granted.
I'm not fucking born into this world just for your needs, or as you would quote it, my 'responsibilities'. I thank you very much for teaching me what my responsibilities are, but sadly, as time passes, I will gradually develop a mind of my own and thus, deciding what my own responsibilities are. I would appreciate it if you won't damn and list down what you think my responsibilities are. I can decide on my own, thanks.
For one, my resposibilities do NOT include doing the fucking brat's homework late in the night sacrificing my own sleep time.
And I'm not some kind of house chore slave to you where you don't even appreciate my efforts to please you and try to cope with the pressurizing possibilities that you might blow up and the whole family would be unhappy again just because you get pissed. I hope you know that you are very influential and thus, don't use that (even if it's unconscioiusly) to your advantage.
But even if I try to hard not to talk back, you still give out the feeling that doing house chores are necessary. I know it is, and I don't deny that it is one of my resposibilities as a member of this house but please, for fuck's sake just please do not tell me I DO NOT help around the house and that I just use the computer and go online all day long.
For your sweet information, I do not do that. If I did, I wouldn't be in there, trying to control my temper while trying to help the fucking idiot to do his homework. If I didn't care about anything, I would have been asleep and not hear what bad thoughts you had to say about me.
I know very well that I'm whining right now, but oh please, just because I'm the one that's done with PMR, it doesn't mean that I'll agree to be your personal slave that you can lash out no matter how unhappy you are.
God, you should learn to control that ugly and horrible mouth and temper of yours. Even when you didn't let me skip school, even if I was very and utterly upset, I did not give you a sour face and the evil glare to show my dissatisfaction. Instead, I'm proud to say that I shrugged it off and like always, consoled myself that there will be a next time for me to ask, and if not, I should not mind that I don't get to skip school.
Everyone around you (except for the freaking brat) is trying to adjust their activities, temper, time and whatever shit that are important to us just to try to make you and the fucking brat really happy so we won't have to go through another hell of a quarrel, so I hope that with that immensely dense brain of yours you get to realize how much we hope to at least get some rest and have a bit of freedom to do some of the stuff that we like without actually having to force ourselves to do your fucking bidding. And when you do realize it, I hope you will change for the better and stop making it so difficult for us.
Don't take me, as well as the others for granted. I swear, if you make me feel this way again, I will personally let you feel my wrath and even if you do start war against me when I do so, I will survive and no matter what it takes I will let you know that what you do is affecting us, me, at least.
Online 24/7 my ass. Fuck that bullshit, who was the one that tried to help you with the chores and push her playtime until night time up to like, midnight almost everyday? I'm know that this time slot is optional, and I can choose to just sleep instead of surfing the net, but sorry, I need the computer to regain my sanity, or you won't see me the way as I am in school now.
And I know that tiredness during daytime is what I have brought upon myself, but seriously, what is wrong with just not helping out for one fucking night and sleeping since half-past eight?! Don't I get my right to sleep?! Plus, you hang the clothes you have washed at like, what?! Ten or eleven at night?! I sincerely appreciate your efforts to help us wash our clothes that we need to wear but seriously, the time slot you chose is when people want to sleep. For me, sleep is something very important and everyone has the right to choose their own sleeping time. It might not be important to you but for everyone else who has had a busy day, they just want some rest.
I know you might have had a busy day too with all your work but not all people are the same. You're a workaholic (which explains your demanding nature) but we're not. And everyone's opinion differs, so I'm not forcing your reader of this post to agree with whatever crap I say, I'm just ranting out my feelings.
But honestly, what is wrong with sleeping?! If you're so pissed at my not helping you, you could just beat the shit out of me and wake me up until an earthquake arouses and pull me out of bed to help you. You want me to help then don't give those lame shit about what 'you think the others will let me disturb your sleep meh?' or whatever shit they say. You want me to help, you say it to my face and not try to become some kind of lonely hero of the day and mope around saying 'you didn't help me, how could you?! This is your responsibility now that the maid's not around and....' and whatever crap you have in mind.
I know you might say, 'oh, it's because I love you so I let you sleep' and all that pretending to a hero speech. Oh please, don't. ever. say. that. You wanna let me sleep, you shut up and don't ever utter a word about me not helping you. You let me sleep with your own consent and acknowledgement, so stop being so pissy and contradicting. not that you can't be contradicting (I'm like that too most of the time) but for some other stuff, it's just clear and simple. It's just very simple, either you let me sleep and shut up or you drag me out of bed and tell me to help you.
A few weeks ago, around the time PMR has ended and the chores have started...
'If you wanted my help you could've just pulled me out of bed,'
'Aiyah, you think they bear to let me pull you out of bed meh? I love you what, so let you sleep lorh...'
Okay.. fine, point taken. Now let's look at this morning's scenario.
'Hah! Never help with the house chores then go to sleep so early?! Eh, you finish PMR already eh, you have more free time so you should help wan okay? And then you go sleep some more, haiyo, you no need to help with the house chores wan ar? There are so many more friends of yours out there who even have to help to do more stuff than you, and you go and sleep?!"
and bla bla bla.
What the fuck.
Okay, I acknowledge the fact that there are people who do have to help with lots more stuff but oi, if you tak puas hati, you can just tell it straight to my face that you don't want me to sleep until you're done with all the chores.
I know it's my fault that I didn't help you, but seriously, can't someone just rest for a while?!
After all that, you reader must think that I'm a very petty person who rambles only about her rights. Sorry, I just needed to vent.
I'm hurt that you wouldn't even say a 'thank you' to those who have helped you. Okay, you do sometimes, but that will have to depend on your mood regardless to say. Oh, and when you're angry, you yell and squawk like a parrot like there's no tomorrow at anyone that doesn't do what you want. God, will you just stop those immature acts of yours?! The world does not revolve around you, and I think that you are really fortunate that we are trying our best to tolerate and cooperate with you. I just hope that one day you will appreciate whatever we do for you to try and make your life easier. (Well, maybe you do, but god, you don't have to yell at us for every small mistake we make.)
I swear for the second time in this post, if you take us for granted one more time (regardless of whether it's PMS or whatever bullshit lame excuse there is for you) I will make it my personal mission to give you hell. I'm sick of you always unable to hold your temper back. I know you do at most times now, but seriously, besides the fucking brat, you're emotionally instilling fear into every one of us. And I repeat I'm getting sick of it.
And FYI, stop complaining about how to world sucks for you. The probable cause for your so-called sucky world is yourself, and I hope that if it is, you reflect inside yourself and see what mistake have yuo done to cause all your 'mishaps'.
BTW, the world sucks for everyone, not just you alone.
I'm really hurt for what you did to me just now. I know I might not be as tired as you are, but seriously, asking me to do the brat's homework into late night?! And asking me to write down the answers and let him copy?!
Oh Kami-sama, I ask this of you, did we ever ever have this kind of privilege when we were at his age? No? Exactly. No matter what the problem was, we tried to solve it ourselves, and no matter how much we didn't want to go to school just because we didn't finish our homework in time, we still had to do so. The most we got was our family's moral support and the lecture about bad time management.
And just now, I didn't even see it happening to the brat. Instead, he received a nice hug and a few consoling words after showing his verge of crying state and went into sleep dead mode while we, the ones at the sidelines, got it.
I know that I told you guys to go get some rest (I know it's my responsibility), but seriously, shouldn't you like just let him face his own problems? Or at least tell me to get some rest too?! Isn't that basic courtesy?! Or have you now taken up the 'you volunteer arr? Okay lorh, everything throw for you to do' attitutde as well?!
Fuck, I've received this kind of attitude a lot from school so please drop that attitude if you're infected with one.
Hell, this is just shit.
I'm just really hurt that you wouldn't really care about our feelings, and that you act as if helping him to do his homework and much more other stuff is a necessary to keep the family harmony going.
Fuck that. Even if you were still very sleepy right then, you really shouldn't have done that. Everyone else is just as equally tired as you are, and don't give me that 'oi I do the housework for all of you and no matter how reluctant I am to do so I still do, so that makes me more tired than everyone of you all' shit. Duh. Everyone else has their own problems to face and cope with, so don't just assume that you're the most 'kelian' person. To me, right now, even if you deny it, you're unconsciously seeking for attention.
Well, I don't blame you. Who doesn't? Even me, right now, writing this, I am maybe also seeking for attention.. It's all nature, but I just can't stand the way you hint at people to say that whatever you do you did it reluctantly.
Suck it up will you?
If you want me to be straightfoward, I can just tell you how reluctant we are to constantly allow you your space while we have to sometimes throw all our rights to voice anything out of the freaking window.
'I'm doing it all for you all!!! You all don't appreciate my efforts to let you all live so comfortably meh?!'
We do, just that you sometimes overdo it. Do you ever appreciate ours?
Gah, this whole thing is just so... gah. I'm just really disappointed at that attitude you displayed earlier on. Even though I sometimes would have different opinions to yours, but I still respected you. Right now, I can say that it decreased a lot. Why am Isurprised that sis doesn't even really bother anymore?
So, all in all, do not take me and the others for granted. Instead, I just hope that you appreciate what has been done for you and not let it waste, because when everyone starts to not both about it and leave, you'll be alone. And at that time, it's no use regretting and wishing you had a second chance.
Oh, and due to the length of this post as well as the time it has been posted, the grammar and spelling might have a bit of typos here and there.
Post start:
Don't take me for granted.
Seriously. I hate it when people do that. It's like you think of me as a piece of useless, crappy shit that is only useful when you need some of my 'shitty' qualities.
I repeat, don't take me for granted.
I'm not fucking born into this world just for your needs, or as you would quote it, my 'responsibilities'. I thank you very much for teaching me what my responsibilities are, but sadly, as time passes, I will gradually develop a mind of my own and thus, deciding what my own responsibilities are. I would appreciate it if you won't damn and list down what you think my responsibilities are. I can decide on my own, thanks.
For one, my resposibilities do NOT include doing the fucking brat's homework late in the night sacrificing my own sleep time.
And I'm not some kind of house chore slave to you where you don't even appreciate my efforts to please you and try to cope with the pressurizing possibilities that you might blow up and the whole family would be unhappy again just because you get pissed. I hope you know that you are very influential and thus, don't use that (even if it's unconscioiusly) to your advantage.
But even if I try to hard not to talk back, you still give out the feeling that doing house chores are necessary. I know it is, and I don't deny that it is one of my resposibilities as a member of this house but please, for fuck's sake just please do not tell me I DO NOT help around the house and that I just use the computer and go online all day long.
For your sweet information, I do not do that. If I did, I wouldn't be in there, trying to control my temper while trying to help the fucking idiot to do his homework. If I didn't care about anything, I would have been asleep and not hear what bad thoughts you had to say about me.
I know very well that I'm whining right now, but oh please, just because I'm the one that's done with PMR, it doesn't mean that I'll agree to be your personal slave that you can lash out no matter how unhappy you are.
God, you should learn to control that ugly and horrible mouth and temper of yours. Even when you didn't let me skip school, even if I was very and utterly upset, I did not give you a sour face and the evil glare to show my dissatisfaction. Instead, I'm proud to say that I shrugged it off and like always, consoled myself that there will be a next time for me to ask, and if not, I should not mind that I don't get to skip school.
Everyone around you (except for the freaking brat) is trying to adjust their activities, temper, time and whatever shit that are important to us just to try to make you and the fucking brat really happy so we won't have to go through another hell of a quarrel, so I hope that with that immensely dense brain of yours you get to realize how much we hope to at least get some rest and have a bit of freedom to do some of the stuff that we like without actually having to force ourselves to do your fucking bidding. And when you do realize it, I hope you will change for the better and stop making it so difficult for us.
Don't take me, as well as the others for granted. I swear, if you make me feel this way again, I will personally let you feel my wrath and even if you do start war against me when I do so, I will survive and no matter what it takes I will let you know that what you do is affecting us, me, at least.
Online 24/7 my ass. Fuck that bullshit, who was the one that tried to help you with the chores and push her playtime until night time up to like, midnight almost everyday? I'm know that this time slot is optional, and I can choose to just sleep instead of surfing the net, but sorry, I need the computer to regain my sanity, or you won't see me the way as I am in school now.
And I know that tiredness during daytime is what I have brought upon myself, but seriously, what is wrong with just not helping out for one fucking night and sleeping since half-past eight?! Don't I get my right to sleep?! Plus, you hang the clothes you have washed at like, what?! Ten or eleven at night?! I sincerely appreciate your efforts to help us wash our clothes that we need to wear but seriously, the time slot you chose is when people want to sleep. For me, sleep is something very important and everyone has the right to choose their own sleeping time. It might not be important to you but for everyone else who has had a busy day, they just want some rest.
I know you might have had a busy day too with all your work but not all people are the same. You're a workaholic (which explains your demanding nature) but we're not. And everyone's opinion differs, so I'm not forcing your reader of this post to agree with whatever crap I say, I'm just ranting out my feelings.
But honestly, what is wrong with sleeping?! If you're so pissed at my not helping you, you could just beat the shit out of me and wake me up until an earthquake arouses and pull me out of bed to help you. You want me to help then don't give those lame shit about what 'you think the others will let me disturb your sleep meh?' or whatever shit they say. You want me to help, you say it to my face and not try to become some kind of lonely hero of the day and mope around saying 'you didn't help me, how could you?! This is your responsibility now that the maid's not around and....' and whatever crap you have in mind.
I know you might say, 'oh, it's because I love you so I let you sleep' and all that pretending to a hero speech. Oh please, don't. ever. say. that. You wanna let me sleep, you shut up and don't ever utter a word about me not helping you. You let me sleep with your own consent and acknowledgement, so stop being so pissy and contradicting. not that you can't be contradicting (I'm like that too most of the time) but for some other stuff, it's just clear and simple. It's just very simple, either you let me sleep and shut up or you drag me out of bed and tell me to help you.
A few weeks ago, around the time PMR has ended and the chores have started...
'If you wanted my help you could've just pulled me out of bed,'
'Aiyah, you think they bear to let me pull you out of bed meh? I love you what, so let you sleep lorh...'
Okay.. fine, point taken. Now let's look at this morning's scenario.
'Hah! Never help with the house chores then go to sleep so early?! Eh, you finish PMR already eh, you have more free time so you should help wan okay? And then you go sleep some more, haiyo, you no need to help with the house chores wan ar? There are so many more friends of yours out there who even have to help to do more stuff than you, and you go and sleep?!"
and bla bla bla.
What the fuck.
Okay, I acknowledge the fact that there are people who do have to help with lots more stuff but oi, if you tak puas hati, you can just tell it straight to my face that you don't want me to sleep until you're done with all the chores.
I know it's my fault that I didn't help you, but seriously, can't someone just rest for a while?!
After all that, you reader must think that I'm a very petty person who rambles only about her rights. Sorry, I just needed to vent.
I'm hurt that you wouldn't even say a 'thank you' to those who have helped you. Okay, you do sometimes, but that will have to depend on your mood regardless to say. Oh, and when you're angry, you yell and squawk like a parrot like there's no tomorrow at anyone that doesn't do what you want. God, will you just stop those immature acts of yours?! The world does not revolve around you, and I think that you are really fortunate that we are trying our best to tolerate and cooperate with you. I just hope that one day you will appreciate whatever we do for you to try and make your life easier. (Well, maybe you do, but god, you don't have to yell at us for every small mistake we make.)
I swear for the second time in this post, if you take us for granted one more time (regardless of whether it's PMS or whatever bullshit lame excuse there is for you) I will make it my personal mission to give you hell. I'm sick of you always unable to hold your temper back. I know you do at most times now, but seriously, besides the fucking brat, you're emotionally instilling fear into every one of us. And I repeat I'm getting sick of it.
And FYI, stop complaining about how to world sucks for you. The probable cause for your so-called sucky world is yourself, and I hope that if it is, you reflect inside yourself and see what mistake have yuo done to cause all your 'mishaps'.
BTW, the world sucks for everyone, not just you alone.
I'm really hurt for what you did to me just now. I know I might not be as tired as you are, but seriously, asking me to do the brat's homework into late night?! And asking me to write down the answers and let him copy?!
Oh Kami-sama, I ask this of you, did we ever ever have this kind of privilege when we were at his age? No? Exactly. No matter what the problem was, we tried to solve it ourselves, and no matter how much we didn't want to go to school just because we didn't finish our homework in time, we still had to do so. The most we got was our family's moral support and the lecture about bad time management.
And just now, I didn't even see it happening to the brat. Instead, he received a nice hug and a few consoling words after showing his verge of crying state and went into sleep dead mode while we, the ones at the sidelines, got it.
I know that I told you guys to go get some rest (I know it's my responsibility), but seriously, shouldn't you like just let him face his own problems? Or at least tell me to get some rest too?! Isn't that basic courtesy?! Or have you now taken up the 'you volunteer arr? Okay lorh, everything throw for you to do' attitutde as well?!
Fuck, I've received this kind of attitude a lot from school so please drop that attitude if you're infected with one.
Hell, this is just shit.
I'm just really hurt that you wouldn't really care about our feelings, and that you act as if helping him to do his homework and much more other stuff is a necessary to keep the family harmony going.
Fuck that. Even if you were still very sleepy right then, you really shouldn't have done that. Everyone else is just as equally tired as you are, and don't give me that 'oi I do the housework for all of you and no matter how reluctant I am to do so I still do, so that makes me more tired than everyone of you all' shit. Duh. Everyone else has their own problems to face and cope with, so don't just assume that you're the most 'kelian' person. To me, right now, even if you deny it, you're unconsciously seeking for attention.
Well, I don't blame you. Who doesn't? Even me, right now, writing this, I am maybe also seeking for attention.. It's all nature, but I just can't stand the way you hint at people to say that whatever you do you did it reluctantly.
Suck it up will you?
If you want me to be straightfoward, I can just tell you how reluctant we are to constantly allow you your space while we have to sometimes throw all our rights to voice anything out of the freaking window.
'I'm doing it all for you all!!! You all don't appreciate my efforts to let you all live so comfortably meh?!'
We do, just that you sometimes overdo it. Do you ever appreciate ours?
Gah, this whole thing is just so... gah. I'm just really disappointed at that attitude you displayed earlier on. Even though I sometimes would have different opinions to yours, but I still respected you. Right now, I can say that it decreased a lot. Why am Isurprised that sis doesn't even really bother anymore?
So, all in all, do not take me and the others for granted. Instead, I just hope that you appreciate what has been done for you and not let it waste, because when everyone starts to not both about it and leave, you'll be alone. And at that time, it's no use regretting and wishing you had a second chance.
Post-PMR Celebrations
Hmm, funny enough, everyone has had their celebrations like, the moment right after PMR ended, whereas mine was only held today.
God, after two/three weeks only did I make a trip to CS... How far behind am I?
Ahem, as I was saying anyways, I was supposed to go to catch a movie with Mathura, but sadly, said girl isn't feeling quite well now (hope you get well soon) and after a turn of events, I went to CS with Ah Siok.
Two words to describe the whole outing with Ah Siok: fun and hilarious.
First, we took a lift from Li Yan's mum, and we rushed to the cinema to buy the tickets for Law Abiding Citizens. Unfortunately, due to time constraints we only managed to get the White Out tickets, and we had to smuggle our unfinished-slash-uneaten french fries plus coke into the cinema.
The suspense was (omigosh) KILLING us!!! At the middle where the female protagonist was supposed to find out the real murderer both of us were like cowering at our seats (I hid my face behind my jacket, and after that shamelessly excused myself to go to the toilet), making scared noises to each other. I think of all the people in the cinema, we were the only ones to make lots of noise. Oops...
Anyways, after the movie, it was like a huge relief. The suspense was finally over, and (spoilers) the stupid doctor went and commit suicide out in the cold, freezing storm in Antartica. Gosh, I mean, how idiotic can he be?! Okay, maybe I'm frustrated because I expected something more than the anticlimax they showed us.
Sigh...
Coming back to what I was saying, after the movie, we went to Popular and MPH to search for some books. Sigh, it's pathetic really, why don't MPH and Popular bookstores have Sarah Dessen's Just Listen?! I mean, that book is a MUST for all book-lovers (won't say bookworms, as the term is slightly inappropriate) to read! Gosh, and they have to go through all those merchandising procedures that takes two to three weeks in order for the book to arrive. (Shakes head) they should seriously always update their stock of books (even if it's only one pathetic copy) in order to make it convenient for both parties.
But I digress.
Later, we went to Baskin Robins' and ate ice-cream after running errands for Mathura, Li Yan and Yolander. Evil Siok Zhao resisted my offer of Baskin Robins'!!! LE GASP!!! But truthfully, one scoop for seven bucks is really expensive. I will keep in mind not to spend that much the next time I go out.
Remember what I said in one of my previous posts? Being penniless sucks. Yes peopel, today, this very day, I have once again experienced this feeling while entering the Apple shop. AN iPod shuffle that only contains 2GB for Rm229... Goodness. That's take two and a quarter of my monthly allowance without spending them to buy that!! And it's only 2GB...
But on the bright side, there was a decrease in the price of the Apple earphones. The last time I asked a pair costed about 144 ringgit... ANd now it's 129 bucks.
But still very expensive. I got the brochure from the salesguy just to look at the tasty Apple products when I'm craving for them... I know, I'm materiaistic, but I really love Apple stuff. XD
Dead beat right now. I'll edit this and add more stuff tomorrow. For now, it's off to hell to teach mah bro his homework. God, ten years old and he still needs coaching on his studies. When I was his age, I studied alone and managed to get pretty good grades!
And to think that I have to listen to every word mum says and tolerate her pointless lecturesslashramblesabouthowhardworkingsheusedtobe(perasannyaorangni)aswellashersocalledacheivementswhenshewasmyage even if it's after PMR. You'd think I get to at least stay at home and sleep in for the day but no, I have to go to school unlike other fortunate students and go through all the stuff that the school organises for us.
Now that's just shit.
I'm not trying to indicate that I'm rebellious, but sometimes I just feel that she should try to appreciate my efforts to not quarrel with her over these matters, like the house chores for example. I'm trying my best to do them all but she keeps on hinting at me that it's not enough.
What the hell.
Anyways, enough of my pointless rants. Censor all that. Goodnight.
God, after two/three weeks only did I make a trip to CS... How far behind am I?
Ahem, as I was saying anyways, I was supposed to go to catch a movie with Mathura, but sadly, said girl isn't feeling quite well now (hope you get well soon) and after a turn of events, I went to CS with Ah Siok.
Two words to describe the whole outing with Ah Siok: fun and hilarious.
First, we took a lift from Li Yan's mum, and we rushed to the cinema to buy the tickets for Law Abiding Citizens. Unfortunately, due to time constraints we only managed to get the White Out tickets, and we had to smuggle our unfinished-slash-uneaten french fries plus coke into the cinema.
The suspense was (omigosh) KILLING us!!! At the middle where the female protagonist was supposed to find out the real murderer both of us were like cowering at our seats (I hid my face behind my jacket, and after that shamelessly excused myself to go to the toilet), making scared noises to each other. I think of all the people in the cinema, we were the only ones to make lots of noise. Oops...
Anyways, after the movie, it was like a huge relief. The suspense was finally over, and (spoilers) the stupid doctor went and commit suicide out in the cold, freezing storm in Antartica. Gosh, I mean, how idiotic can he be?! Okay, maybe I'm frustrated because I expected something more than the anticlimax they showed us.
Sigh...
Coming back to what I was saying, after the movie, we went to Popular and MPH to search for some books. Sigh, it's pathetic really, why don't MPH and Popular bookstores have Sarah Dessen's Just Listen?! I mean, that book is a MUST for all book-lovers (won't say bookworms, as the term is slightly inappropriate) to read! Gosh, and they have to go through all those merchandising procedures that takes two to three weeks in order for the book to arrive. (Shakes head) they should seriously always update their stock of books (even if it's only one pathetic copy) in order to make it convenient for both parties.
But I digress.
Later, we went to Baskin Robins' and ate ice-cream after running errands for Mathura, Li Yan and Yolander. Evil Siok Zhao resisted my offer of Baskin Robins'!!! LE GASP!!! But truthfully, one scoop for seven bucks is really expensive. I will keep in mind not to spend that much the next time I go out.
Remember what I said in one of my previous posts? Being penniless sucks. Yes peopel, today, this very day, I have once again experienced this feeling while entering the Apple shop. AN iPod shuffle that only contains 2GB for Rm229... Goodness. That's take two and a quarter of my monthly allowance without spending them to buy that!! And it's only 2GB...
But on the bright side, there was a decrease in the price of the Apple earphones. The last time I asked a pair costed about 144 ringgit... ANd now it's 129 bucks.
But still very expensive. I got the brochure from the salesguy just to look at the tasty Apple products when I'm craving for them... I know, I'm materiaistic, but I really love Apple stuff. XD
Dead beat right now. I'll edit this and add more stuff tomorrow. For now, it's off to hell to teach mah bro his homework. God, ten years old and he still needs coaching on his studies. When I was his age, I studied alone and managed to get pretty good grades!
And to think that I have to listen to every word mum says and tolerate her pointless lecturesslashramblesabouthowhardworkingsheusedtobe(perasannyaorangni)aswellashersocalledacheivementswhenshewasmyage even if it's after PMR. You'd think I get to at least stay at home and sleep in for the day but no, I have to go to school unlike other fortunate students and go through all the stuff that the school organises for us.
Now that's just shit.
I'm not trying to indicate that I'm rebellious, but sometimes I just feel that she should try to appreciate my efforts to not quarrel with her over these matters, like the house chores for example. I'm trying my best to do them all but she keeps on hinting at me that it's not enough.
What the hell.
Anyways, enough of my pointless rants. Censor all that. Goodnight.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
GA Vol. 20
It's coming out in Japan on the 11th of November....
I was exploring the Hana to Yume site when I came across this... Hmm, it felt weird seeing all those kanji's on the monitor but ah well, I feel really proud of myself for stumbling across updates like these even when I can't understand most parts of the kanji verses.
(smug)
Anyways, I wonder who will be on the cover this time... The High School Principal probably... Idk, it's still in printing... Hmm...
I was exploring the Hana to Yume site when I came across this... Hmm, it felt weird seeing all those kanji's on the monitor but ah well, I feel really proud of myself for stumbling across updates like these even when I can't understand most parts of the kanji verses.
(smug)
Anyways, I wonder who will be on the cover this time... The High School Principal probably... Idk, it's still in printing... Hmm...
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