There is a barrier between me and my blog now, for some reason. Whenever I think of something to write, and open my blogger page, something stops me.
This is bad.
Suddenly, I feel like watching Pokemon again. You know, childhood revisiting?
Monday, August 30, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
aftermath
Hello there, just finished UF2, and like every test stupid people like me go through, I'm sure everyone knows the result so I won't go there. The outcome is horrendous anyway.
Anyways, moving on, I realised I have really a lot of sad/emo posts lately, so this is gonna be the opposite, or at least, not that emo. Okay, to lighten up, here's a grin:
:D
Lol. Okay, that wasn't funny. Shoot, what was I gonna write in this post again?
Never mind, moving away from that, I'm starting on The Red Pyramid by Rick Riordan. It's not bad, though PJ still rocks the socks! Actually, I started a bit before exams, and being the typical me, I flipped to the ending, and it sort of spoiled the whole element of surprise thing. Hmm.. Oh well, I'm anticipating lots of books this year!!! (huge grin) Mockingjay is just released (my sister likes that series for some reason), Diary of a Wimpy Kid book 5 (Nov), PJ- The Lost Hero (Oct) and many more.... Oh yes, I saw Mini Shopaholic on that Popular Bookfest catalogue, quite surprising, I thought the series ended already. And no, I don't read Shopaholic (Workaholic sounds better, imagine someone slaving their guts out for work, that'd be awesome), my sister just happened to buy the series for some reason... Meh. Oh well, the product of human pleasures' seduction....
But somehow the damsel in distress always gets saved at the end of the day. Is there some story where the protagonist actually dies in shame and humiliation?! Lemme think.... no, I haven't encountered any of those stories AT ALL. So far.
I shall be facing the horrors of failing grades tomorrow (or friday). Yay.
Peace out.
Anyways, moving on, I realised I have really a lot of sad/emo posts lately, so this is gonna be the opposite, or at least, not that emo. Okay, to lighten up, here's a grin:
:D
Lol. Okay, that wasn't funny. Shoot, what was I gonna write in this post again?
Never mind, moving away from that, I'm starting on The Red Pyramid by Rick Riordan. It's not bad, though PJ still rocks the socks! Actually, I started a bit before exams, and being the typical me, I flipped to the ending, and it sort of spoiled the whole element of surprise thing. Hmm.. Oh well, I'm anticipating lots of books this year!!! (huge grin) Mockingjay is just released (my sister likes that series for some reason), Diary of a Wimpy Kid book 5 (Nov), PJ- The Lost Hero (Oct) and many more.... Oh yes, I saw Mini Shopaholic on that Popular Bookfest catalogue, quite surprising, I thought the series ended already. And no, I don't read Shopaholic (Workaholic sounds better, imagine someone slaving their guts out for work, that'd be awesome), my sister just happened to buy the series for some reason... Meh. Oh well, the product of human pleasures' seduction....
But somehow the damsel in distress always gets saved at the end of the day. Is there some story where the protagonist actually dies in shame and humiliation?! Lemme think.... no, I haven't encountered any of those stories AT ALL. So far.
I shall be facing the horrors of failing grades tomorrow (or friday). Yay.
Peace out.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Missing Pepper
Salt on Black Friday. Was okay, Angelina Jolie was awesome as usual (hot chick), but the plot could have been improved a bit more. They should really produce a sequel. It could probably even be called 'Pepper'. Haha...
I wrote a long vent about my feelings lately, but suddenly my computer decided to self-shut-down, leaving the rant unsaved. And obviously, vents are depressing, sad and melancholic, and I'm not really in that state of mind where I can gladly type everything back again like it was normal.
I just hope that you can tell me what's wrong, instead of me having to guess your moods youare experiencing lately. It is very hard to start a conversation with you recently, unlike how it used to be where we can just chatter on forever. I am very sad. Is it me? You have to tell me, because four years of bestfriendship is very important to me, and I don't really want to lose a great friend like you who has always been with me, especially the times when I needed you. But now, it's gone. And I don't know who I can turn to anymore, because you seem very eager to get rid of me. And although I sound self-conceited, but I am the type where when I feel you are pushing me away, I will stop talking to you because I feel you do not like me, and to save both ourselves from trouble, I go away.
I don't want that to happen to us, because you are my best friend, and it really hurts to be pushed away. So, I am hoping that you can tell me what your problem is, since we are best friends, wait, more than best friends (for me, that is, I don't know how you see it in your perspective) I don't mind if you criticise me for something I have done unconsciously to upset you. I don't probe, because I know you don't like it, and right now, I am hanging on tightly to the belief that you will tell me when the time is right.
It just hurts to be ignored by you, okay? I know I am right now classified as attention-seeking and pathetic, but I just cherish these years of best-friendship so much that I don't want to lose it. I just hope you understand, and can tell me if you actually don't want me to hang around with you.
I am sad, I am really very sad. Because sometimes when I just happen to glance at you, I see a tinge of disgust and disapproval towards me in you. I know I am not the best person to be with, and I have my faults, but I am working on them so I can be better, and we can patch up this piece of friendship I treasure a lot. I am trying to be patient with you, but I am not a saint. Is it because of my previous sudden period of business that has somehow let you think I don't need you? No, it isn't like that. Never was. Or is it because there was a time I was constantly absent in class and school that made you move on? I know, life moves on, people move on. But is it too late for me to mend this weird feeling similiar to cold war you have been seemingly pouring me with? If it is so, and I am a nuisance, it would be nice if you could just tell me you are sick of me and want other better friends far more better than me. I will grieve, and probably cry, but at least I know what your true feelings are, and I will know how to act on them.
First it was the settling down after the period of busy-ness, then I thought it was because of the music examination, but now, I don't know what is bothering you.
I am sorry if I unconsciously upsetted you over something, I am really very sorry. But I hope this last time works, because after some time, I will interpretate your body langauge as you don't want me wherever you are, and I think I wll stop trying.
You don't want to tell or people to know, youu act like normal, okay? People worry, and when they ask and you say "really? No, I'm okay," but you show that emo face saying that everything's not okay, it just sometimes make me want to goddamn ask you what the hell s wrong. You don't tell, no one will know. you don't tell, I won't know, because only like 2 percent of the best friends in this world have this telepathy thing, but not me, I am not a sixth sense person.
I am really very sad. This has made me change my perspective about the word 'change' itself. I used to accept it, and move along with it, but right now, I'm not so sure anymore.
I wrote a long vent about my feelings lately, but suddenly my computer decided to self-shut-down, leaving the rant unsaved. And obviously, vents are depressing, sad and melancholic, and I'm not really in that state of mind where I can gladly type everything back again like it was normal.
I just hope that you can tell me what's wrong, instead of me having to guess your moods youare experiencing lately. It is very hard to start a conversation with you recently, unlike how it used to be where we can just chatter on forever. I am very sad. Is it me? You have to tell me, because four years of bestfriendship is very important to me, and I don't really want to lose a great friend like you who has always been with me, especially the times when I needed you. But now, it's gone. And I don't know who I can turn to anymore, because you seem very eager to get rid of me. And although I sound self-conceited, but I am the type where when I feel you are pushing me away, I will stop talking to you because I feel you do not like me, and to save both ourselves from trouble, I go away.
I don't want that to happen to us, because you are my best friend, and it really hurts to be pushed away. So, I am hoping that you can tell me what your problem is, since we are best friends, wait, more than best friends (for me, that is, I don't know how you see it in your perspective) I don't mind if you criticise me for something I have done unconsciously to upset you. I don't probe, because I know you don't like it, and right now, I am hanging on tightly to the belief that you will tell me when the time is right.
It just hurts to be ignored by you, okay? I know I am right now classified as attention-seeking and pathetic, but I just cherish these years of best-friendship so much that I don't want to lose it. I just hope you understand, and can tell me if you actually don't want me to hang around with you.
I am sad, I am really very sad. Because sometimes when I just happen to glance at you, I see a tinge of disgust and disapproval towards me in you. I know I am not the best person to be with, and I have my faults, but I am working on them so I can be better, and we can patch up this piece of friendship I treasure a lot. I am trying to be patient with you, but I am not a saint. Is it because of my previous sudden period of business that has somehow let you think I don't need you? No, it isn't like that. Never was. Or is it because there was a time I was constantly absent in class and school that made you move on? I know, life moves on, people move on. But is it too late for me to mend this weird feeling similiar to cold war you have been seemingly pouring me with? If it is so, and I am a nuisance, it would be nice if you could just tell me you are sick of me and want other better friends far more better than me. I will grieve, and probably cry, but at least I know what your true feelings are, and I will know how to act on them.
First it was the settling down after the period of busy-ness, then I thought it was because of the music examination, but now, I don't know what is bothering you.
I am sorry if I unconsciously upsetted you over something, I am really very sorry. But I hope this last time works, because after some time, I will interpretate your body langauge as you don't want me wherever you are, and I think I wll stop trying.
You don't want to tell or people to know, youu act like normal, okay? People worry, and when they ask and you say "really? No, I'm okay," but you show that emo face saying that everything's not okay, it just sometimes make me want to goddamn ask you what the hell s wrong. You don't tell, no one will know. you don't tell, I won't know, because only like 2 percent of the best friends in this world have this telepathy thing, but not me, I am not a sixth sense person.
I am really very sad. This has made me change my perspective about the word 'change' itself. I used to accept it, and move along with it, but right now, I'm not so sure anymore.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Sense of satisfaction
Phew, August is here. So soon.
In another few more months, 2010 will be gone. :/
Anyways, just finished colouring a picture for the School Magazine. I AM VERY PROUD OF MYSELF FOR ACCOMPLISHING THIS TASK! ALL IN MY LIFE I HAVE ONLY DRAWN ONE WATERCOLOUR PICTURE (and half or 3/4 of it was by Ami sensei) BUT AFTER 8 MONTHS OF NOT DRAWING, I HAVE MANAGED TO PROUDUCE A COLOURED PIECE (of course, with reference from Sola , Spiral: Alive and Detective Conan artbooks) WITHOUT THE HELP OF A TEACHER! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT, capital B-U-T, there are a lot of mistakes, obviously. The hair is odd, because when I draw manga I always draw it in back and white, and therefore neglect the light reflection and stuff. SO right now, I'm glad I am able to accomplish something like this on my own. Yay! Shall ask Charlene the art genius (no kidding! She's awesome!) in private about my mistakes and how to correct them tomorrow. But for now, I'm just waiting for the picture to really dry up before adding the artline, and then ta da! It'll be done!
I'm quite proud about my clouds, though some are incorrect and are atrocious, but hey, some parts are awesome like how it's done in the books! Yay!!! XDXDXDXD
In another few more months, 2010 will be gone. :/
Anyways, just finished colouring a picture for the School Magazine. I AM VERY PROUD OF MYSELF FOR ACCOMPLISHING THIS TASK! ALL IN MY LIFE I HAVE ONLY DRAWN ONE WATERCOLOUR PICTURE (and half or 3/4 of it was by Ami sensei) BUT AFTER 8 MONTHS OF NOT DRAWING, I HAVE MANAGED TO PROUDUCE A COLOURED PIECE (of course, with reference from Sola , Spiral: Alive and Detective Conan artbooks) WITHOUT THE HELP OF A TEACHER! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT, capital B-U-T, there are a lot of mistakes, obviously. The hair is odd, because when I draw manga I always draw it in back and white, and therefore neglect the light reflection and stuff. SO right now, I'm glad I am able to accomplish something like this on my own. Yay! Shall ask Charlene the art genius (no kidding! She's awesome!) in private about my mistakes and how to correct them tomorrow. But for now, I'm just waiting for the picture to really dry up before adding the artline, and then ta da! It'll be done!
I'm quite proud about my clouds, though some are incorrect and are atrocious, but hey, some parts are awesome like how it's done in the books! Yay!!! XDXDXDXD
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