drabble

omg right after I came back from school I immediately turned on my computer and went on the Super Junior tag on Tumblr, without sparing my dashboard a glance, without even checking my hotmail (which is a first in years of onlining and surfing the net because every time I come on the net I always, always check my mail first) and right now, my dash is filled with Kangin and Super Junior because today, 16.04.2012 is such a special day for us ELFs I’m not complaining. 

Kangin is home, and for the next few months Teukie will be happy :) I just can’t imagine right now how much worse it will be when Park Jungsoo enlists this year and I really wonder if I can take it. Super Junior won’t be the same without him. ;__;

Oh Tumblr, messing up my timetable. I wanted to post my SJ fic today on LJ but after hours of reblogging I don’t think it’s possible. And I wanted to download iTunes and EXO’s mini album MAMA but I don’t think it’s possible again, because it’s late now and mum’s gonna kill me if I don’t get off the computer soon. Then she’s gonna confiscate the modem and ban us all from the internet. NOOOOOO.

Sigh, but it’s all worth it, for Kangin, for Kim Youngwoon, for Super Junior. :) Super Junior fighting!

I really must get a calendar that displays all of EXO and Super Junior’s members’ birthdays. Everyday it’s like I’m living in a world where I’m constantly wondering if it is anyone’s birthday today and I can’t remember all 15 + 12 kpop stars’ birth dates. Seriously, I’ll go mad. Taking science in my A-levels is already killing me and maximising my use of neurons and memory cells.

Okay, so right now imma go find a calendar and findout their birthdays and mark it down now. And then only go to sleep. Sigh. Life of a fangirl. 

BUT I AIN’T MAD. 8D

Oh but wait, shit, I gotta get all my PLKN postponement documents ready so I can mail it the first thing tomorrow. Urgh asjkndjkahsiudhuiayhuihkjsdnkjhweuiafbjkfg damn it all.

[KPOP] MY FEELINGS. I CAN'T. NOOO.

FUCK IT'S OUT. THE TEASER'S OUT! OPERA JAPANESE VERSION MV TEASER IS OUUUUTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG THE FIRST THING I SAW BEFORE THE VIDEO PLAYED WAS YESUNG'S SOLO AS THE THUMBNAIL!!! FUCK I AM SOOOOOOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW I JUST CANNOT CALM DOWN.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG SPAZZING SO HARD RIGHT NOW FUUU---- THE THINGS KPOP SUPER JUNIOR (YESUNG) HAS DONE TO ME.

He's like saying take my hand and fly with me and we'll have a tragic Phantom of the Opera romance and you'll never ever wake up from this dream but that's okay Yesung I love you too much to come back to reality and I'll tolerate all the heartbreaks you give me lol wtf am I saying such a delusional stupid girl okay shutting up now bye.

Seriously, this beats SM's SJ MVs by lightyears. Avex Trax, thank you for letting Super Junior shine once again (and letting Yesung be the main in more than half of the teaser /sobs/ I sincerely hope he will be for the MV too). ELFs are forever grateful to you *standing ovation*

9TH OF MAY I WILL BE WAITING. BUT FIRST, 16TH APRIL: KANGIN IS COMING HOME SOON!!!!!! HOORAY.

P.S: EXO has debuted on Mnet Countdown. Anticipating their Music Bank performance!!!

P.S.S: AND I'M SORRY SEHUN I FORGOT TO WISH YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY BUT I'M SURE YOU'RE AS HAPPY AS FUCK ANYWAY BECAUSE YOUR BELOVED LULU WISHED YOU AND PROFESSED HIS CARE AND CONCERN AND LOVE OVER THE FUCKING CHINA BROADCASTING SYSTEM JUST FOR YOU.  HUNHAN, STAR-CROSSED LOVERS OF THE MILLENIUM.

And Baekyeol. Never ever forget my first EXO otp. It'll stick with me life or death for the rest of my life.

Ugh

Ugh, I am annoyed, seriously. Dear LJ, please stop being so complicated so I won't have to go through all this frustrating shit and vex my poor nerves.

Ajdhsujshudisnusisgafqdiflsnwhs. How do I make my post/entry page plain without the theme layout?? Like, for my recent entries page I retain my layout but when I click on my of my posts the layout just disappears and everything's plain but still in rich text format? At first I thought pages like that were only for communities. But then after digging deeper I realised this wasn't the case (I think). So right now I'm really confused as to what I need to do. Is it because of my layout??

Bleh, I'm not sure, and I'm much too tired to care right now cos it's freaking one in the morning and I need my dose of sleep thank you very much. All shall be continued tomorrow I suppose. Sigh, why won't things just make themselves easier for us?

Sleeping now. And I remember to pray for Yesung, don't worry (lol who am I kidding asking strangers not to worry when I'm the one panicking here?).

See you when I see you.


*edit: Okay, so Yesung having a fucking throat surgery WAS A RUMOUR. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW!!!! GOD BLESS KIM JONGWOON! Thank you, God. But in a tweet I read that Yemum said it was nothing serious, SO DOES THIS MEAN THAT YESUNG DOES HAVE SLIGHT PROBLEMS WITH HIS THROAT?! Oh Yesung, please take care of yourself. :'(

[K-Pop] Holy shit.

Originally posted on Tumblr but I decided to copy and paste it here anyway. I'm so worried, vexed, anxious and ugh whatever damned worried adjectives there are in this world right now. This is the first time I'm so worried over someone who doesn't even know I exist, and that's the beauty of fandoms I guess. 


Yesung, I really hope you're okay. Praying really hard right now and will be doing so everyday from now on and thanking every holy being up there in heaven for ensuring Super Junior's health and safety and letting Yesung regain his health. He sings for his living, so nothing must ever happen to his voice. ;__;

I HAVE JUST READ THE MOST SHOCKING PIECE OF NEWS OF MY LIFE THAT YESUNG WILL BE UNDERGOING VOCAL SURGERY SOON BECAUSE OF A LARYNX ILLNESS.  

What. The. Fuck? 

Oh my god I never knew such a thing had happened! VOCAL SURGERY?! FOR FUCK’S SAKE YESUNG’S VOICE IS HIS PRIDE, HIS PASSION, THE GODLY THING THAT ALLOWS HIM TO SING LIKE NO ONE ELSE CAN IN THE ENTIRE KPOP INDUSTRY, HIS EVERYTHING.  

No. I just can’t. Ugh. Why of all people must this happen to a person who sings so passionately for his living?! I’m just so sad right now that he has to go through all of this shit, like his life isn’t shitty enough with everything that Super Junior and his family have gone through. Why is the world so cruel to him? It’s like telling a sprinter that something is wrong with his ankles and that his legs need to be amputated and he can never ever run again. 

Get my point? Yes? Good. 

Now, looking back at all the Yesung pictures I reblogged I really am on the verge of crying because how long has he known this himself? And he has to pretend everything’s okay and smile for all the fans and fucking cameras knowing it might never be okay again. I know they say it’s not serious, but I just can’t stop worrying. It is all thanks to him that I am able to laugh and smile everyday and I always am indebted and grateful to people who can do that to me. 

His existence right now is part of the reason (and I am sure many other people’s reason all over the world as well) I’m living life so happily now, seeing Yesung smile is one of the greatest things in my life so please, God, Buddha, Allah, every holy being up there please don’t take away the thing he loves most and please please please let everything be okay so Kim Jongwoon can continue doing what he loves and does best - singing. 

I’m listening to The More I Love You now, and I really feel like crying, knowing that there’s a possibility his singing might never be the same ever again. But even so, I will always support and love Kim Jongwoon for who he is.  

Dear hospital and surgeon in charge of Kim Jongwoon aka Yesung’s surgery, you’d better do a fucking good job and make sure he doesn’t get hurt or suffer or else I’m wreaking havoc one way or another and you’d better dish out your best lawyers to deal with the shit I’m aiming and throwing at you if anything goes wrong. ELFs and especially Clouds are judging you so hard now you’d be the world’s biggest idiot to not take this seriously.  

SJ PLEASE TWEET MORE TO LET US ELFS KNOW MORE ABOUT THE DATE AND STUFF OR SOMETHING!  

I wanna hug Yesung now so bad, or send him cards or something meaningful to him right now to cheer him up because he’s probably really scared and nervous and worried right now. ;__; Korean ELFs and Clouds if you see this and have a chance to meet him someway or somehow please tell him that us fans are always supporting him and and will always love him no matter what. Thank you so much. 

I will pray for him everyday, every moment I remember, every night before I sleep no matter what happens. I will pray for the best for him even if I’m not in that religion I will still pray hard and hope every single lucky star is on his side for the rest of his and Super Junior’s lives. 

KIM JONGWOON FIGHTING! SUPER JUNIOR FIGHTING!

Okay, that's all I posted on Tumblr. Please let him be all right. Thank you. This has again taught me how important it is to cherish every moment I get to see him on the internet, smiling and singing instead of taking it for granted like how I'm starting to be lately. 

But for a price like this? It's just too much for me. 

HOLY SHIIIIIIIIIIIT MAMA IS OUT!!!!!!!!!! XDXDXDDD TITS ARE SO NOT CALM RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG

Okay, I gotta finish this post first before I watch it, or else I will lose the main objective of this post.

So, I got back my computer from the technician, and all files are backed up, safe and sound. Yay! My documents are still there, my pictures are still there, AND MY SONGS ARE STILL THERE TOO!!! YAY!!!! So right now before I actually remembered EXO's MAMA is out and checked it on Youtube, I was busy bookmarking all the sites I frequent and making mental checklists of what I should do, like change my wallpaper, organise all that back-up shit, get iTunes and stuff.

BUT NOW I JUST WANNA WATCH THE MV SO YEAH BYE PEEPS SEE YOU WHEN I SEE YOU HOLY FUCK TODAY IS A GREAT DAY YAY EXO HERE I COME BYE~~~~~~~~~~~~



Okay, just watched the video. My emotions right now are like asdiugtfiwegnkdhuizyownkfn. CHANYEOL IS SUCH A CUTIE BADASS WITH FRIZZY HAIR. Baekhyun is just... I can't. No. But Kai's rapping part really freaked me out, with those lines drawn on his face, I feel like it's worse than Lady Gaga's creepy fashion in her scary music videos. :/ But oh well, THEY HAVE DEBUTED. NO MORE TEASERS. I'll miss those SMent trolling and EXO teasers but right now, their journey starts and I wish them all the best with my heart.

EXO FIGHTING!

Dear PC,

How nice and convenient of you to die on All Souls' Day, leaving me wondering how on earth am I going to get back all my word documents and 500++ songs. You must've hated me I suppose. But thanks anyway, even though there were frustrating times (like your shitty lagging) we still stuck through for five years. Okay, RIP, bye.

But honestly, HONESTLY, WHY????!!!!!!! FUCK I DIDN'T EVEN BACK UP MY STORY I WORKED DAY AND NIGHT FOR. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU The technician better get it out somehow, along with those songs. I can't download them one by one anymore, I don't have the patience to. But that's another story, because at least I have a list in my iPod of what songs I have. BUT MY DOCUMENTS, MY STORIES, UGH. YEARS OF INSPIRATION AND PROMPTS AND IDEAS ALL GONE. GONE. DARN. BUUURRRRRRRRRN IN HELL.

Sigh. This sucks. I hate this.




*edit: Fuck you Chemistry test, if it weren't for you I could've finished editing the freaking story and posted it on LJ yesterday and I won't even feel so depressed now. Fuck this shit.

it's done, finally done

Completed: 2 April 2012, 0320 hours in the wee morning.

It's finally done, the first fic I've completed in years.

:')

Now all it needs is a grammar and spelling check, a summary and a title and it's all set to be posted on LJ.

Approximately 15, 500 words in three or four weekends, and to think I originally wanted it to be a oneshot with 7000 to 8000 words! My first Yewook fic is finally done! After countless frustrating writer's block moments and hours of sitting in front of the computer trying to think of the best possible word to suit the context, it's done.

The thrill of writing when the creative juices flow, it's something I'll never be able to gain by doing anything else.

But editing will have to come later after Wednesday, for I have my Chem test coming up and I have not studied a single shit. God knows how I'm going to cram everything about Chemical bonds into my exhausted, sleep-deprived brain.


But for now, I must sleep. Tomorrow's going to be a tiring day, but it's all worth it.

Yay!!! I FEEL SO HAPPY NOW.


See you when I see you!