holy shit I am so behind times the cover was revealed at the end of May why did I forget to check omigosh the cover is so fucking cool dudes this is way better than my previous post gosh Percy looks freaking awesome he kicks ass man I can't freaking wait to get this book damn October so freaking close to SPM darn it I so want this book and omg he remembers Annabeth even though he lost his memories!!!

I apologise. That got wayyy out of hand. But I'm just so excited for this book! The last book was kind of a disappointment for me because Percy didn't appear at all! Note: being mentioned is different from making an appearance in the book. Gah. So many great stuff coming at the end of the year... Injustice much?

PERCY!!!! Gah, I miss the times when Annabeth would kick his butt.

Finally.

Behold! The much long-awaited cover has been revealed! Can't wait to read it! The cover looks so.... wow. Definitely made an impression on my mind. I hope this is as good as Once Was Lost! Fingers crossed!

Drawing and painting those Teresa banners have really sucked the life out of me. I just thank the unseen forces- okay, rephrase, that sounded wrong. I just thank my lucky stars that I have Jie Yu slaving over the banners with me and the occasional help from the drifters that float by.

But even so, I just feel so fucking tired, and like all the spirit of Sport's Day is being vacuumed out of me like a drilling machine on the roll. I don't know why.

The others can't even care less about the banners. They just wanna paint a little and get the marks, despite not dong much. The things that they've done probably aren't even worthy of the marks they're gonna get. I just feel so.... frustrated. I know I shouldn't say this, because at least they've helped in some way, and I should be grateful for it. But for some reason, I'm just not. Somehow my feelings machine has broken down and I'm just sitting down here wondering when it would actually get patched up. It's just so fuckng hard to stay cheerful and optimistic when the spirit wasn't even there to begin with and your teammates start to act like immature, bratty babies and don't give a shit just because things aren't going their desired way. If I wanted to let go and not care, I would've done it a long time ago. Why should I keep on enduring all the shit my parents give me for getting myself involved with all that's happening and not carrying out my responsibilities as a student and start working on my add maths? That's the problem, people always think that there are people to pick up the shit they leave behind and think they can just slip back in like nothing ever happened when things start getting smooth again. When are we actually gonna grow up, put aside all that immaturity and start acting responsibily?

I hope a good night's sleep takes away some of this shit. All that 'all talk and no action' attitude really pisses me off to no end.

Silver Spoon

Ooh. New series from Hiromu Arakawa! Finally, something nice to read.

It's the sick season now. I'm sick, my friends are sick, my dog is sick, everyone's sick.

I bought Delirium. Woots. Now, to save my pocket money for Desires of the Dead and The Throne of Fire hardcover edition. Should take action fast though, hardcovers are hard to find, and yet MPH has it!!!! Huzzah! but I should probably read The Body Finder before actually buying the sequel (ie Desires of the Dead). Meh.

Lack of writing posts has resulted in my inability to write a longer and more interesting post. I apologise for that. Time hasn't really been on my side much, but since when had it been anyway?

baaaacck

from KL.

Exhausted. Tired. Gah. Many things happened. Due to exhaustion I'm just too lazy to write out whatever happened in KL.

But in the end, AT LEAST I got this (as a sign of comfort, even though it is not the hardcover edition, sadly and most regrettably):

Score.

Now, to wrap it and then read it. After a good night's sleep. In my own bed. With my own cuddly pillows. That is.

zzzzzz.

it's June already.

half a year has flown by.

i ask myself.

am i ready to fight, and stay steady?

the outcome is clear.

no. i think i'll die.