So while insomnia kicks in, this should have been the perfect chance for me to start studying my ass off for Add Maths, Bio and Physics, but no, I just had to give in to the temptations of the internet.
Darn. My resolve is weak. Bad.
Hectic month it has been, exams and such. Plus after exams I'll be pretty much working my ass off for the school magazine. Once I'm done with that, I think there isn't any much more to do. Except studying. And procrastinating.
I wouldn't be surprised if my results this time aren't really that good. Throughout this whole month, when I'm not studying or sleeping or eating or in tuition or on the road, my time is spent on the internet, reading and finding various ways to amuse myself to the point where I leave silly comments on people's walls on FB, something I have never done before. Still, I have to admit, it's like a guilty pleasure, you know? Like, when everyone's slaving over Chemistry I spent the whole afternoon on the net reading stuff (which turned out to be quite productive) and only started my revision at what, eight something nine at night? And I slept at ten something eleven?
Sometimes, I surprise myself.
My grades are self-explanatory. My family thinks I work hard, but in truth I'm just a bum who sits in front of the table doing my own things, never quite studying.
I guess I'm kinda frustrated at myself for letting them down, disappointing them.
I know. Self-pity is just a pathetic, shallow excuse. But I am allowed to be so sometimes, am I? Then when I decide it's enough, I'll just pull myself out of that shitty state and start moving on with life.
But for now, at least these few hours until the break of dawn, I'll just sit here and enjoy escaping reality while the whole world passes by.