should be studying but I'm not

So.... I mentioned like, months ago that I really wanted a laptop to replace my old, old super duper old grandpa computer that had been with me since eons ago. First my original one which stuck with me since I was 13 crashed, and since my brother was getting his new computer specially for gaming (RM 3000, no kidding, that brat should be extremely grateful) and had no use for his old one, my parents took both the PCUs to the repair shop, and suddenly my mum called up to ask if I wanted to merge both the PCs together.

And me being me, desperate for the return of my precious computer, agreed.

And I really regret it right now. My brother's computer used to be the family computer and was bought since I was in primary school, around the age of 10? 11? I don't know, somewhere there. But it was considered as a really really new model in the market, so it's not surprising it can last for like, erm, seven to eight years. But you know boys, they don't really bother with taking great care of their computers and crap, at least not my brother. When I got back my hybrid computer from the repair shop I was really expecting efficiency and speed unlike my original computer, lagging and all that shit (but I found out I actually didn't install something when I manually reformatted it so it's partly my fault :P) but it turns out, the fucking CD drive is extremely noisy, and the performance didn't really improve much anyway. And it'll cost me 99 bucks just to change the CD drive. Recently, my computer's been freezing every time I log on Tumblr or Youtube, presumably cos' it can't really keep up or handle with the huge files of gifs and videos. It can freaking lag up to 15 minutes and in the end I get so frustrated I just turn off the switch at the main plug. Not even Ctrl+Alt+Delete could save my ass then.

Pissed. And what's more, the damned CD drive isn't working anymore and there is this really, really loud annoying sound coming from inside and from time to time I really have half a mind to just take a sledgehammer and smash this piece of technology crap to bits. Or fling it off Mount Everest or something and watch it explode like fireworks.

The basic functions are still okay, FOR NOW. I can open Words, though sometimes it freezes AGAIN and I get pissed AGAIN because I couldn't save in time. Thank goodness for autosave. The fact that I can sit here and blog about this is a miracle. I want a new laptop. My parents are really nice about it though, that's the good thing. My mum's been asking me occasionally if I wanted to get that MacBook Pro I've been eyeing at for months, but idk, it's kind of expensive I really wonder I should spend it on a laptop. I love my sister's Mac, well, except for the times I don't have a mouse and have to manually scroll and right click stuff.

We went to the Apple reseller to check out prices. And since the Retina Display model has been getting much hype lately my parents were considering getting it. But the most noticeable downside of it is the loss of the built-in CD player. I asked around, and found out the external CD drive costs RM 249, which I find it quite ridiculous despite its sleek model and smooth aluminium surface. And the RD MacBook is really expensive, despite my uncle from Singapore telling me that if I want a MacBook I should go for the latest, and that it's cheaper to get it in Malaysia than in Singapore. Well, idk, it's a laptop with top-notch graphics they say, and when I tried the demo displayed on the counter I couldn't really see the difference between the RD and Pro 15". :/ Maybe it's the fine details or something, idk, cos I only got like 3 minutes of time to check the models out before my parents tugged me out of the store.

The brochure I got stated that for a 256GB flash RD model it costs RM 6,799. At first I was puzzled, I mean, 256GB? While the 15" Pro model had 500GB for RM 5,499. Is it even enough storage space? As much as I like quality stuff, I put a lot of emphasis on storage too. Saving pics, downloading songs, installing software, it takes up a lot of space and eventually poof 256 GB gone. And hard discs are nothing but trouble. If possible I want to just store everything in a reliable laptop and back up important documents in a pen drive. The USB chip doesn't malfunction when you accidentally let it go for a swim in the washing machine.

So.... idk. RD has really improved and high-speed processors, it's thin and light according the reviews I read and the cooling system is great, but STORAGE. And it's 15". I don't want to stuff a huge freaking oversized laptop into my bag. What if it doesn't fit? Somehow, lots of people use MacBook Air as a comparison to RD, but imo if I were to get RD I might as well get Air, and if I'm gonna get Air I might as well go for Pro. ://// I don't want the normal Windows laptops because omg, remember that time I tried using my dad's HP laptop? The result is horrendous. I like Windows XP. Windows 7 is bullshit for me. All that glare (adjusting the brightness doesn't even work it's either too dark or too bright omg my eyes it burns) and messy organising. I know you're trying to have pretty sophisticated icons for your files but seriously, it's really weird and annoying to try and decipher the heck those files are about. But I don't mind that, I could always get used to it, it's the GLARE and OPAQUE-ness of the system I terribly, horribly abhor. I can stare at my monitor all day long and never get tired, but when it comes to my dad's laptop mother of god my eyes hurt in just two hours.

So unless I actually find a nice laptop with Windows 7 which I like, I'm just putting Mac on my list. I think Pro is awesome, 13" is just nice for me (though I'd be getting the same model as my sister) but RD has more advanced technology, and eventually all new macs are gonna go with RD's advanced technology and by then I don't know it it's possible to upgrade the 13" MacBook Pro. :// It's heavy, but thinner than most laptops I've seen in the market which I like a lot because it saves me a lot of space. But the price. 13" isn't so bad, I could get a 500 GB one for 3,700. It's RD that bothers me. 6,800 for 256GB flash (what does this flash thingy do anyway, is it something that makes it faster or what), and that doesn't include the external CD drive (249) and the fact that I have to buy an external Ethernet cable if I want to connect my laptop to a modem just makes the price ridiculously higher. And for the 512 GB RD one it's a freaking 8,699 ringgit. DAFUQ? I DON'T WANT TO SPEND 10,000 ON A LAPTOP. THAT'S JUST INSANE. I COULD BUY A TICKET TO AUSTRALIA OR EUROPE FOR A NICE ONE-WEEK VACATION. OR BUY ALL THE ALBUMS I WANT.

Damn. asdjckjshdcjkdh I wish my computer was portable anywhere I go. Laptops are just such a hassle. ;__;